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16 May 2009 @ 10:44 am
Yesterday I turned 25 years old... and it was a day to remember although I may prefer to forget some parts of it!

Around 5:30am Kaison began yelling for me from his room. This is a bit early for him, but I got up and got him his morning bottle and changed his butt anyway. Shaun took over soon after so I could go back to bed since it was my b-day and my day to sleep in. It wasn't long though that Shaun was yelling for me b/c Kaison was choking on some cereal. I rushed out and beat it out of him only to have Shaun yelling for me b/c Kaison was choking again!! I beat his smacked his back and sure enough he puked up a bunch of nasty all over me, but was ok. I laid down for a little bit longer and around 9:00is heard Kaison playing outside my door. I let him in and pulled him up on the bed with me for some cuddle time, but was surprised he was soaked!! Turns out he had severe diarrhea and pooped nasty liquid poop all thorough his diaper and clothes and was smearing it all over my white down comforter. =(  Don't ask where his dad was b/c I dunno! I mean he was in the house but I am sure he was sleeping on the couch or something and not paying attention.

I tossed Kaison in the bath tub and took a shower after throwing the comforter out and puitting the sheets in the wash. 9:30am and I was puked and pooped on and forced to do laundry. Super.... Happy Birthday.

Around 2:30p my mom came home and told me she was too tired to go to my graduation. I wasn't really upset, but she was nice enough to watch Kaison so we didn't have a screaming diarrhea flowin' 1 year old in the auditorium.

Shaun took me to The East in Wells, ME for lunch where they screwed up his sushi order 3 times! 3 times!!! hello?! He had so much sushi when we left there (they let him keep all the mess ups) it was crazy!! Otherwise it was pretty good though.

We scooted over to the Nassan Center in Springvale where graduation was being held and I was excited to see we had new black robs and not the green ones I always see in pics! sweet! I got my robe which was so long it brushed the floor while I walked and proceeded to take some pics with a few of the girls before we started.

Ceremony lasted for 1 hour. That's it. Small class... nothing fun to say, no big speeches. Super sweet! I started on the right side of the stage, exited on the left and bee lined it for the back door with out turning back!!

That was it for my day. I worked the overnight last night... the usual and here I am.

Care to see a few pics??

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11 May 2009 @ 11:56 pm

So Mother's day was ok for me. Just ok b/c my father took Kaison and myself out for b-fast and my mother took Kaison, my Memere and myself out for lunch but through the entire day Shaun could not find a single ounce of decency to even wish me a happy mothers day. =( I was so mad. It's not like he didn't know, b/c he was there when I gave my mom her gift and card and he even took partial credit for it. Didn't even know what was in the bag!! (I bought my mom a nice window frame that said "Grandkids" in block letters down the side with spots for several pictures and a new digital camera to take the pics with.)

So I sent Shaun a text at the end of the day telling him how upset I was and how crappy he makes me feel and that I was seriously disappointed. He tried to say sorry, but I told him I didn't want to hear it then he tried to flip the tables and blame ME for not telling him to wish me a Happy Mother's Day.. I was like WHAT?!?! Are you effing kidding me?! I shooed him off to work and when he called at lunch I gave him short yes and no answers to all his small talk he tried to make. I'm still mad at him you know?

When I got up around 10:30pm to get ready and leave for work my mom was up. Which was a surprise since she goes to bed early and wakes up at 4:00am. Shaun brought me over to the same bag I had used for my mothers camera and frame and in it I found 3 birthday cards. (My 25th b-day is Friday) 2 cards were from my mom. Apparently she couldn't decide between eh 2 and bought them both... lol. She's a nut. And there was a card Shaun had made on the computer with a pic of me and Kaison and it said how sorry he was and he didn't mean to upset me and blah blah   . Everything I didn't want to hear and he said he hoped he did better for my birthday.

My mom and Shaun bought me the Nintendo DSi I wanted plus games and accessories. It's was nice and I wasn't expecting anything from Shaun and certainly not this from my mom. I have it charging right now so I haven't really been able to play with it. It's a really nice gift, but it doesn't get Shaun out of trouble! I am still upset from yesterday. (Sunday)

In other news.... Kaison is doing good. I love spending the days with him. Granted I am his human jungle gym, but that's ok. I have changed his diet up. I have read it in friend LJ's but never thought to apply it to my baby. Kaison has been severely constipated his whole 1 year of life.... well, the only true constant in there has been his formula. It just dawned on my to eliminate it from his diet and see if it helps. He is a year old anyway and should be on milk now and not formula, but i have introduced him to the soy milk. Hopefully this will high fiber foods will help. He hasn't had a bowel movement in 14 days now and the last one was only b/c I had to use a pediatric enema. =(

I have to go in and register for classes this week. They start May 26th. I'm trying to knock as many out now as I can as  NH resident b/c tuition will go up in FL at least until I can claim residency. 

Nothing else really going on. I'm gong to get some work done.


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10 May 2009 @ 06:43 am

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03 May 2009 @ 05:10 am
Hi LJ,

    I'm tired today. Too tired to update really. I have been awake since 6:30 Friday morning. It's what.... 5:15 Sunday morning?! I should admitt I have had an hour or two of sleep once or twice, but thats it. I'm pretty much running on empty here. 

    I'll make a better entry when I have had more sleep.... I promise.

                    <3 me.
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01 May 2009 @ 12:52 pm
Today Kaison is a whole year old! 365 days we have managed to keep him alive and I can hardly believe it!! I made a bit of a sideshow with a handful of pics taken over the past year. Some you have seen some you haven't. I'm not usually big on posting the pics b/c I don't have time, but since today was also officially my last day at my extern I now have plenty of time during the day to do things like this!! Kaison has come along way since his 6lb 9oz he joined us in this world as and I couldn't be a happier person b/c of him! =)
On to the pics!

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28 April 2009 @ 04:23 am

It's my last week at my extern and I can't begin to tell any of you how relieved I am about it! I have been so tired lately i probably couldn't spell my own name correctly. It's awful. I am also really excited to be the one spending all day with Kaison while Shaun is at work. I haven't figured out how exactly I am supposed to get some decent sleep in, but for my joke of a job I don't need a lot.

I finished "We'll Always Have Paris" at schnoogle.com it was great and I am totally thankful Selina told me about it. I am however going to put of the longer versions of the fanfic until I am finished reading Breaking Dawn. I don't like to have too many stories playing out in my head at once. Especially as engrossed in them as I get.

Shaun has moved on to Breaking Dawn as well. He spent HOURS yesterday listening to it. He seems to really like the finally installment of the Twilight series. It has taken him long enough to get this far!

Since I am done with my extern in a few days I would like to jump into my Rosetta Stone collection I think. Yeah, I say collection b/c I have 11 of the languages and have yet to crack open even on of the programs. Since I intend to head south in the near future I think I will break into the Spanish first. There are two but I will have to read into the differences of them.

I also busted out my tae bo dvd again. I really should get back into that too. I think I will look into tanning after my shifts in the a.m. I will have a little time after work and before Shaun has to leave to head over to the gym and at the very least get into the beds. It should be quiet that time in the a.m. Tanning always helps to motivate me to feel better about myself and make healthier choices. I just haven't had the time to do any of this and now my schedule is clearing up a little during the day so I should def. be able to get into it. Once I get past my laziness of course!

Not a whole lot else going on. The weather has been AWESOME!!! It hit 90 degrees here the other day! I was so excited! Granted I slept through most of it, but oh man I love it! Shaun and Kaison are a different story though. Kaison was obviously cranky from the heat and he tried to crawl on Shaun and wine to him but Shaun wasnt having it b/c he too was hot, sticky and irritable. lol. Since the weather changed so drastically so fast we have not pulled out the A/C and i don't think we will b/c its far to early for that and this New England weather is so unpredictable, but it didn't slow down Shaun's complaints about Kay and the heat. I on the other hand was in bed under a down comforter with fleece pants on enjoying every minute of it!! Shaun said he couldnt even stand to look at me like that, but I was loooooving it!!

Shaun starts work Wednesday. The guy from the original job he wanted that pays a considerable amount more called back to offer him the position. He is pretty jazzed about it, plus it is a seasonable type job anyway so he doesnt feel as bad knowing that he is leaving sooner than later.

Shaun and i bought a new camera since my cybershot shit the bed on me. It was like 5 years old anyway. I was in need of a new one. I don't know anything about it other than it is a fugi and a really neat bright green color! This is a pic of it...

ooOOoo..... I think I hear Annette and that's my cue for some good gossip!! adios.


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My all time favortie show is the golden Girls. I watch it daily and have all seasons on DVD. It was sad when Estelle Getty died last year and it is sad now that Bea Arthur is gone. =( I love those ladies and am so sad that they are at the end of their lives.

'Golden Girls' star Bea Arthur dies at 86

AP - Saturday, April 25, 2009 9:48:40 PM

Beatrice Arthur, the tall, deep-voiced actress whose razor-sharp delivery of comedy lines made her a TV star in the hit shows "Maude" and "The Golden Girls" and who won a Tony Award for the musical "Mame," died Saturday. She was 86.

Arthur died peacefully at her Los Angeles home with her family at her side, family spokesman Dan Watt said. She had cancer, Watt said, declining to give details.

"She was a brilliant and witty woman," said Watt, who was Arthur's personal assistant for six years. "Bea will always have a special place in my heart."

Arthur first appeared in the landmark comedy series "All in the Family" as Edith Bunker's outspoken, liberal cousin, Maude Finley. She proved a perfect foil for blue-collar bigot Archie Bunker (Carroll O'Connor), and their blistering exchanges were so entertaining that producer Norman Lear fashioned Arthur's own series.


In a 2008 interview with The Associated Press, Arthur said she was lucky to be discovered by TV after a long stage career, recalling with bemusement CBS executives asking about the new "girl."

"I was already 50 years old. I had done so much off-Broadway, on Broadway, but they said, `Who is that girl? Let's give her her own series,'" Arthur said.

"Maude" scored with television viewers immediately on its CBS debut in September 1972, and Arthur won an Emmy Award for the role in 1977.

The comedy flowed from Maude's efforts to cast off the traditional restraints that women faced, but the series often had a serious base. Her husband Walter (Bill Macy) became an alcoholic, and she underwent an abortion, which drew a torrent of viewer protests. Maude became a standard bearer for the growing feminist movement in America.

"She was an incredible actress and a woman I will miss, and I think everyone else will," said Bud Yorkin, producer of "Maude" with partner Lear.

The ratings of "Maude" in the early years approached those of its parent, "All in the Family," but by 1977 the audience started to dwindle. A major format change was planned, but in early 1978 Arthur announced she was quitting the show.

"It's been absolutely glorious; I've loved every minute of it," she said. "But it's been six years, and I think it's time to leave."

"Golden Girls" (1985-1992) was another groundbreaking comedy, finding surprising success in a television market increasingly skewed toward a younger, product-buying audience.

The series concerned three retirees -- Arthur, Betty White and Rue McClanahan -- and the mother of Arthur's character, Estelle Getty, who lived together in a Miami apartment. In contrast to the violent "Miami Vice," the comedy was nicknamed "Miami Nice."

As Dorothy Zbornak, Arthur seemed as caustic and domineering as Maude. She was unconcerned about the similarity of the two roles. "Look -- I'm 5-feet-9, I have a deep voice and I have a way with a line," she told an interviewer. "What can I do about it? I can't stay home waiting for something different. I think it's a total waste of energy worrying about typecasting."

The interplay among the four women and their relations with men fueled the comedy, and the show amassed a big audience and 10 Emmys, including two as best comedy series and individual awards for each of the stars.

McClanahan said Arthur felt constrained by the show during its later years and in 1992 she announced she was leaving "Golden Girls."


"Bea liked to be the star of the show, she didn't really like to do that ensemble playing," McClanahan said.

McClanahan first worked with Arthur on "Maude," playing her best friend, Vivian. The women quickly became close friends in real life. McClanahan recalled Arthur as a kind and caring person with a no-nonsense edge.


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25 April 2009 @ 01:02 am

I have been extremely cranky and irritable lately. I feel bad for everyone around me, especially my hubby. He gets most of it. I know I am awful, but I am also stuborn and should apologize, but probably wont. =(

I don't know why I am so cranky. Stress I'm sure. Stress which is also leading to a massive break out on my face which Shaun so thoughtfully pointed out while we were at dinner a few days ago. Ass. Maybe that's why I don't apologize.... he is an idiot and deserves what he gets sometimes!

No, no. The past few days I have been REALLY mean to him. Telling him to get out, I can't stand him anymore and that kind of stuff. It's not fair, but I just have zero desire right now to be near him. I have been really distant and avoiding him lately and I'm pretty sure he knows b/c he has been trying to suck up and be extra lovey dovey the past few days. Sending me text msgs that he loves me and trying to give me back rubs or kisses. Both of which I have been ducking or shying away from.

I don't think this means the end of us or anything, I just want to curl up in bed and be alone or cuddle with my baby. I really need to make time for the gym and start taking better care of myself. It's like I know it would make me feel better and I know it will bring me out of this depression, but I can't get that first umph of motivation.

I am also angry to have learned that Shaun has to go back to court and stuff for his medical benefits which the insurance company is denying allt he sudden. We settled with the agreement that his medical would be taken care of for the rest of his life pertaining tot he injury. Why is it THEY proposed the settlement, but are now bringing Shaun back to court?!?! I hate this court system. What I hate even more is that this could push my move back again and it will already be hot enough at the end of June. I am not trying to be moving to Florida in July or even worse August!!

I will know more when we get info from the lawyer, but this sucks. I think it might have to do with some of my depression. My plans and goals are being pushed over again and there's not a whole lot I can do about it. Seriously, I think God's out to get me.

We'll I'm off to get some work done and read my book some more.



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19 April 2009 @ 01:03 am
So I am in the middle of printing and hole punching my livejournal. Yeah, I do that.  Now and then I will take the time to print it. I dunno why but I feel like I should have it on paper and not just here. What if lj crashes one day and I don't have it. Maybe someday when I am gone my kids or great grandbabies will come across and it read about my life. I know I found a journal my mo had kept (for about a week) but I was still interested to read it. I would like to leave something like that behind too.

It's a lot of work printing my lj, hole punching it and shoving it in that damn binder. Good thing I have a nearly unlimited supply of paper and ink here. hehe. Last time I printed the lj was December of 2005! I am almost done printing and I started around 12:30 so really it's not that bad. The hole punching is taking me longer though. *ugh*

Not much else aside from that. Tomorrow.. later today.. Shaun and I are heading over to Tarsha's house w/Kaison for Caleb's 4th b-day! We got him a pretty big r/c dunbuggie thing. So it should be fun!! =) Yeah, we are good gift givers!!

I think the last print out is done. I'm off! ttyl!
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17 April 2009 @ 11:34 pm

Here's my update as demanded by Selina. She twisted my arm and threatened my life viciously!!! lol ok, she merely mentioned I hadn't updated, but for effect lets say she became violent!

This week has actually been pretty easy for me. I was Occupational  Health at the shipyard this week and to say I was there all week is probably near the border of a lie. Although my intentions were to be there and learn there as little to do so I left around lunch. Tuesday I didn't even go in. I couldn't get back into a good sleep pattern and was sooo exhausted that I decided to skip out that day and make it up next Monday. Shaun and I puttered around the house Tuesday and I eventually passed out from exhaustion.

Wednesday I went in for 7:00am and was gone by lunch at noon. All but 3 of the pt's were checked in and already seen so it was silly of me to come back. I still get credit for the whole day though. Shaun had an interview that afternoon at some fancy little store/market to be a butcher/deli person. Sounded like he would get the job. The guy told him today he was just waiting on the references. I hope he gets it and starts soon. It would ease some of my stress about the move. $15/hr 40+ hours a week for 8-10 weeks and it is all for the saving should help out quite a bit! Wed. night Shaun and I watched the movie Marley & Me. It was good funny but the end was sad. I had tears in my eyes too, but I couldn't help but laugh at Shaun. I saw of course some tears trickling down his cheek and one point and I turned back to the movie. I almost jumped though when he went into an all out blubbering hysterical crying fit! hahahaha!! He couldn't even breath and he was all loud and losing it!! I was laughing at him. I felt bad about laughing, but it was sooooo funny! I have NEVER seen anyone cry like that at a movie. Never in my life! He had to take a shower to calm down and he wouldn't talk to me the rest of the night! lol Even in the morning he was mad and I think a little embarrassed. lol

Thursday I went to "half way day" at the school. I may or may not have ranted about that in here and swore I wasn't going to go, but Tarsha suckered me into it! It was an easy full credit day for a few hours of talking to other SCS students for an hour. I did get my exit interview out of the way while I was there so that was a plus!! Thursday evening I lounged around and did next to nothing. I spied on my mom while she watched Marley & Me and Shaun's recommendation. She held up better than he did, but not without the need for a bath towel!! I asked if she wanted tissues when I noticed she started crying and she said no she needs an entire towel! lol

That brings us to today.. I went in to my extern for 7:00am and was gone by 11:30. On my way home some duchebag old guy forced me off the interstate while I was driving! I had to talk to the state police about it and I feel like an ass! They wanted me to file a complaint about it and go to court, but I refused. It was an old guy who, although I think it was intentional since he was slamming on his brakes and stuff before I switched lanes and he did that, I didn't want to have to go to court and all that stuff. I have the worst luck ever when it comes to driving. I was on the phone with Deb at the time and she was laughing cause she could hear all the honking and stuff! lol. Damn road rage!

I keep forgetting to fill out the rest of Kaison's party invites. I swear I have to write it on my hands to remember!! It's going to be at Mr. Pizza's in Gorham, NH (3 hours north of here) @ 2:00pm! Shaun's fam. and my fav. friends live in the area and my mom and her friends will be up there that weekend so that's why it is being held up there! It's going to be a loooooong day for me since it is between 12 hours shifts and I have to travel all the way up there, but it's for my baby!!

Here I am at work... no excitement there. Can't wait to get back into bed tomorrow. I'm such a lazy person! g'night!

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